Work has been going PERFECTLY. I was afraid people would be a little peeved at the note I left on when I resigned before, but I was welcomed with hugs and smiles and “We’re SO glad you’re back”s. They even still had the birth announcement I sent them pinned up on the bulletin board in the staff area <3. I was so touched and am so glad that they cared for me just as much as I did them.
Ellie babe, who turned 1 on December 17th, is amazing. I can’t even count how many words she can say, and every day she’s learned some new awesome skill. She’s been in a toddler bed for months now and now that she doesn’t feel caged in [like in her crib] she sleeps wonderfully.
Parker and I split a long while back. September, I guess? After a long while of him turning away any time I went to kiss him so I’d hit his cheek instead, I called him out on his pathetic weakness in his inability to just tell me he didn’t want to be with me any more, and kicked him out of my house.
That sounds bad, and at first it was…I spent a long time trying to put my family back together. But somewhat recently I let go. It’s a two way street and I was the only one willing to walk it. I can go out knowing that I did everything I could to try and patch things up.
ANY WAY, I don’t even miss him any more. My only issue is that he is a “play date dad” with Ellia, and not a parent. So this week I told him I want set-in-stone arrangements for when he’s going to have her, and that [as painful as it is for me to be away from El] he needs to start taking her overnight. Nothing else has made him wake up and realize that parenting is more than showing up unannounced and taking her to the park to play…I’m hoping that having to [GETTING TO!!!] spend extended periods of time with her will make him realize what parenting REALLY is, and what a strain it’s been on me to be the only real parent as well as the only person bringing in any income [did I mention he STILL doesn’t have a job, and I’m sure isn’t really trying to get one].
But it’s been good for me here. I love having Ellia to myself [though I do need a break, and she does need a father]. We have a blast and I can’t imagine what my life would be like without her.
On a fun and dirty note, I’ve been “seeing” this guy I went to high school with but never actually knew. We ended up being friends on facebook after a shared political opinion in the comments of someone’s hyper-religious status update and somehow that eventually lead to us being, I don’t know, what’s the polite way to put it? “Friends with benefits?”
We click on a lot of levels, have a blast chatting/texting/talking, and man it’s about time I finally got laid again. It’s SO nice to have a situation where I don’t have to worry about the commitment and lovey dovey bullshit. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a romantic who wants to *eventually* find love and commitment and lovey dovey bullshit…but I definitely don’t want that now, and it ROCKS having someone around who doesn’t want that, either.
I’m tired of typing now, and have probably already said too much, any way. So goodnight Tumblr-verse. I don’t know why I bother…no one reads this shit any way! hahaha
